Waiting

I cannot keep a job for more than 3 years and I do not know if that is a good or bad thing. Hopping from one job to another in a short span of time does not leave a good impression to most employers here. But my career has plateaued. If I am no longer growing and not getting any closer to my career goals, then it's love, peace, and chicken grease.I told Jan I am quitting my job that has become tedious and repetitive. I probably might be jobless for a year, too. And he's okay with it. But that doesn't mean I will be entering the noble but cumbersome world of housewifery. I detest household chores and I will never be good at cooking. And no, I won't be practicing the art of idleness as I would have always wanted (this quarantine has definitely gotten me lazy being lazy). I am going to take care of a big baby, and be a hands on mom to two adorable boys and a blue-eyed furball who has not succeeded in killing me yet. I will also master a new programming language in between.

That was the plan.

Then Automattic happened. I thought already made up my mind to take a career break. And at a time like this? When all we are trying to do is survive and wait for this real life jumanji to be over somehow, here I am, rolling a dice for another round of anxiety by submitting my application for a job I have always wanted but have never done before. Dang! What was I thinking? What has gotten into me? Probably some crazy devil who wants to see people die inside.

I have heard of Automattic around three or four years ago, but reading different blogs about their unusual hiring process has only gotten me more intimidated than encouraged to apply. But I took a giant leap of faith this time (what do I have to lose anyway? Oh yeah, I'll probably die inside. Haha). While there is an overflowing support from the husband and gentle nudges from friends, rereading Automattic's creedfor the nth time has triggered me to finally update my resume and write a cover letter. Endless learning while making the web a better place? It is something I know I can live up. Will I qualify? I will never know if I don't give it a try.

So I did. And the waiting game begins.